i met my cousin today after a veryyy long time.....she got married... and this was the second time i was meetin her after her marriage... she is now a mother of a 2 month old baby boy...
when i met her.. i noticd this weirdness in her behaviour.... this rudesness and arrogance towards everyone.. i wondered y....
i asked her.. she refused to answer... the next question i asked was how was her married life.. and she repeated the following sentence thrice..."DONT EVER GET MARRIED.. ULL SUFFER...THEY RE JUZ GOOD WID U IN THE BEGINNING.. LATER ON THEY TREAT U LIKE EVERY MAN TREATS THEIR WIFE AFTER YEARS OF MARRIAGE"...
i wasnt surprised... coz.. ive heard that from many females once they r over the beginin llove phase of marriage....i wonder y... i mean when they get married they re all so happy.... and they juz cant thank god enuf for givin them a life partener...... but right after a year or so... they start gettin irritated wid that one person they were madly in love wid.......
being a girl... when i think of my marriage...i think of all the girls ive known so far who r married.. and in their words missin the freedom and fun they had when they were with their parents...
wat confuses me is.. wen a girl is at her parents house... she cant wait to find the love of her life get married wid him.... and have kids wid him...
and as soon as she does step into that part of her life....finds the love of her love gets married has kids.... she misses her past and wishes she got bak her freedom all the times she spent being a girl who was single ready to mingle!!!
we want our lifes to change... and when it does... we want to go back to wat it was...
similarly when we are in skool... we wanna join uni and have an independent life.. once we r in uni we want to start working.... and when we do start working we miss our college life and wish it never ended.. and we were in colege.. we miss our skool life and wish it never ended and we wud always be kids..
the question is... what exactly do we want... and when we do get it... y do we want more.. or less than that.....
i feel weird when i see such situations coz i feel the same...and at times i wish my uni life doesnt end... coz wen it does.. ill miss it and want it to come back... and when u cant go back in time.... its difficult to move on...
we shud always keep in my mind... yesterday is past... tommorow is a mystery and today is a gift... thats y it is called present!!! :)

at times u feel so blank... so confused and depressed.. and wen u look around for the reason.. u find nothng....
u feel so unsure abt ur next step coz ur not sure where u stand at present...
theres no solution to this feelin... all u can do is wait for this phase to get over....
and thenn u moveon and forget abt al this... then when it comes back to u again.... u still have no solution coz u dunt really noe wats rong in ur life...
i myself dont noe wat im typin ryt now.. coz i feel so blank and maybe thats the reason im bloggin and vommitin out the words that are juz comin into my head ryt now...
i wonder why do we feel like this and why cant we do nethng abt it..
y do we feel so empty.... even wen life is complte in everyway.... why is there a why to everything.....
why do we make evrythng complicated widout even knwin why we are doin it.. and why am i using the word why again n again.. coz i feel so blank n empty ryt now.. and im so sure... most of us feel this every now n then..
the question s wat can we do abt this feelin and this emptiness...
or is this juz something we have to live with and get use to....
all we can do is distract ourselves.. but for how long?....

at times i jus feel like dieing.. jus want everythng around me to end... so that i dont have any more worries or any more regrets.. but then i think if i die... ill have the biggest regret that i never actually lived my life to the fullest coz if i did i wudnt want to die... i was so negative becoz of the happenings around me that i juz didnt want to look at the bright side and believe that things might change... i was juz so fed up of everyone and everythng around me that i could take no more and i wanted no more...
things chnge so much at times that you wish that u never came into this world.. u start regrettin every bit of ur life... widout realisin that there were happy days in ur life aswell...we ve becum so engrossed in our routines that we have lost the true essence of life...
we just wwant life to go accordin to us.. we want eveyone to live accordin to us... and everyone wants us to live accordin to them.. ever wondered why?... the perfect answer to this is becoz everyone is now selfish... everyone wants wat they think is a benefit for them.. we ve lost the patience the genuiness.. THE TRUE ESSENCE OF LIFE!... all we think about is how to make our life better widout thinkin that at present our lifes are the best...
we r sooo involved in plannin our future that we juz dont want to live our present and then later we regret about our past!!...
at times when we r happy we dont want it to end... but when u see the road ahead of you is full of sadness all u wish for is death or for time to stop be4 it reaches there or time to skip that part of life...
no one can blame themselves if thats how they actually feel... the blame goes to the people around that person....
if im happy the main reaosn is becoz the people around me are lettin me be happy but if i am sad is becoz the people around me are lettin me be sad...
we ve all become so selfish and self centered that for us wat matters if juz our smile our happiness...nothing more!... and then we complain that no1 cares abt us...
how can we expect something what we ourselves dont gve others?!!

why always so perfect?!

wats the exact meaning of the word perfecT?... someone whu knows everythng ... or maybe someone who is good at everythng.... or maybe someone who is positive about life and expects nothng from life...
being perfect is something we all want to be.... but yet we fail to be? why... have we ever thought about it...the secret behind being perfect does not lie behind how well you know something... but how well you understand yourself and what all you r capable of...
try something you dont know how to do... and improve what you do know.... it ll surely lead u to be someone who can be called perfect!
but why do we always have to be so perfect... why not just good..why do we want everythng to be the way we want it to be.... why cant we juz accept wat we have and try to get what we can....
my point here is why do we always want everythng in our hands in the most perfect condition....
why cant we expect a little less than perfect and be happy with what we have
a friend of mine has everythng anyone would want....but still she is asking for more.....there is absolutely nothng rong in asking for more.. but atleast be happy with what you have and then expect more......
the point here is..... we have what we deserve and we can get more if we try.....we can be perfect but the stage before being perfect is not that bad that some of us dont appreciate it at all...
dream for more but live for what u have....